“Whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours” – Mark 11:24
Would like to thank Lord for the awesomest silver and counting existence. There would be days that I kept on asking, what should I do? how will I able to survive this? is this worth to try out? am I pursuing this as your guide? Please lead me.
I thought that by 25, I will already be successful in my chosen career, stable in terms of finances and about to settling with a long-time partner. This was my idealistic timeline set as 16 years old. Hopeful that future will be in my favor. Let’s be real, who doesn’t have that kind of ambition?
But as they say, things will not go through as plan.
I just turned 25th (9-July) and nothing close to what I have dreamt for myself at this age. All I could hope for now is a time machine, magic lamp, genie and the likes. Because I know what I could ask for.
Life has been shitty for me frequently but I keep on battling. I am this persistent. I know sooner it will end, but honestly it been tearing me apart. I believe that I’m not the only one who’s in this hell hole, however it felt like I am alone and lonely.
I realized that this is quarter life crisis, I have to take responsibility of all my life decisions and my acts towards the situation at hand. I keep on asking myself “what happened to me? to my ambitions?” it feels like I’m in the loop, aware that its happening and one wrong move, the loop will collapse. That’s why I’m afraid to take action. I felt like I have failed myself for not following my target timeline, bargaining love life as its not a requirement in life. I felt like I betrayed my parents on not returning their investment on me. More than disappointing others, I had disappointed myself. And these thoughts have been eating up myself lately. From the outside I seem fine and have to be brave enough to show off my strong version of self.
I’m still learning, developing and healing myself in all aspects. And I’ve realized that, lfie is not a race and it does not have a finish line. Everyone has their own timeline to shine. As to speak, I’m more of realist and optimist rather than idealist.
On the side note, my department at work gave me these. To be honest, I’m not expecting anything from them. This made me almost cry, they made an effort and its my first time to receive a bouquet.
I do received greetings from my loves slash favorite people to enlighten my day. Thankful for their existence that a simple message could actually cheer me up when the days that I couldn’t even know what to do.
It’s the time of year, the 12th Festival of Cinemalaya happened last August 5 – 12. These reviews are personal views from me. I’m not an expert in film nor trying to be an expert.
Since there are no tickets left when I visited CCP, I decided to purchased the FIC (Films-In-Competition) pass worth of 1500PHP. As the perks, there would be no queuing in line.
Dagsin directed by Atom Magadia
Dagsin means gravity. Although I think it’s the gravity of the “bodies falling to earth” type, on the other side I do think that “gravity” in Dagsin can take to the whole different meaning in the context of this film.
Lando at Bugoy directed by Vic Acedillo, Jr.
What matters is that everyone makes amends, and look out for each other the way people who love each other do.
Ang Bagong Pamilya ni Ponching directed by Victor Villanueva and Inna Salazar
A religious man who does petty crimes, Ponching, gets into a new venture, text scamming, thinking it will not really hurt anyone. One day, his seemingly “innocent” text scam accidentally cons a recipient into thinking he is the bastard child of their late relative.
Ang Bagong Pamilya Ni Ponching utilizes it delightfully funny lead Janus Del Prado together with Ketsup Eusebio and its story and execution that the audience can really enjoy. I love the soundtrack and scoring of the film. But what I really like more is its message that it will leave the audience.
Hiblang Abo directed by Ralston Jover
IAmerica directed by Ivan Payawal
What would Dory do?
Don’t think twice
At some point in everyone’s life, you’ll have absolutely no idea what to do. You’ll be so lost, and you’ll wonder why you’re where you are in the first place. But you know what? Just go. Sometimes, you should trust your gut. We should all have faith in fate. Wait. What’s that other word for fate? Oh yes! Destiny.
You can choose what to remember, but you can’t choose what to forget
It’s easy to decide which memories we want to retain. We can easily memorize the songs we like, that formula we need to ace that Trigonometry exam, and recall the faces of the people we know. However, as we move on in life, we are bound to forget things. There are also things that other people won’t even remember, but you’ll never forget.
You know how to get in … and out
When you enter the real world, there’s this one word that you should know: accountability. It’s about being responsible for your actions and not blaming anyone else for your lapses. So when you know that you were the one who got yourself in rut, you should be the one to find your way out.
There’s always another way
It’s all about perspective. It’s in the way we see things. Half full or half empty, it’s up to you. It’s either you accept your situation or you find another way to change it. It’s about being resourceful, optimistic, and of course, courageous.
Plans … sux
Be spontaneous. YOLO. Go on a gap year if you can. You’ll never know who you’ll meet on that solo trip you booked on a whim. You can’t control everything, so just make the most out of what you can.
You can do anything you set your mind to
Always believe in yourself. When you think that you haven’t done enough, don’t beat yourself up for it. The key is to remain focused on your goals, and to keep yourself motivated and driven to achieve them.
Some things are worth the wait
No matter how long, no matter how hard. Yes, some things are all about hard work and hustle, but there are things that take time, and patience. Enjoy the slow burn. Just like this movie, those 13 years of waiting—it was all worth it.
And of course, just keep swimming
its a must.